date: Tuesday, March 22, 2005 @ 2:15 am
title: Promise..
Sleeping not?
Its like 2 plus am in the morning.
Actually I took a nap when I came home.
I was startled by the darkness in the house, except for my tablelamp.
I pissed my Daddy today.
I failed to keep my promise to help him to pack up.
I was late. Very late. 2 hours late.
He was like so unpredicatable.
I can't say 'no', so I promised him that I will come.
Which is worst?
Saying 'No' at his face or to fail to keep the promise.
Den Holy Spirit asked me a question.
'Will you give excuses?'
Initially, I said 'yar.. well.'
Den He gave me a negative impression and replied,
'Next time, when God doesn't fulfil His bargian. He will also give you an excuse.'
Gosh.. Ooops!!
It's like revelation of the day. Ouch!
The whole time, I was like not myself. Super quiet and still.
Didn't dare to give comments or speak, for I fear that I might accidentally spark a quarrel. I'm usually speak before I rationalize, under stress. With 'confident' tone that might create a fasle impression, den.. there goes the day, shattered within secs with my careless talk.
Bleah.. put it aside lar. It stinks.
Today..
Made an effort to sleep more.
Woke up @ the usual time.
Piled pillows on my head to bury myself.
Couldn't breathe.. Choked and woke up.
Prayed for Halena. Poor girl. Persecution after another. Non-stop.
Oh yar.. I was dancing on my table again the night before.
I was over-filled with joy.. I'm a werid prophet.
Manifested while sleeping. Soak abit den dozed off.
Read my bible everyday.
Okie.. no more fancy talk, it's time for action!!
Read Acts @ home and on MRT. Ha..
Just..
I sensed something..
I could smell death somewhere at the corner..
I got a clear picture.
It's the smell of break thru with blood that's going to be spilled.
And I think it's getting nearer and nearer..
Today..
I was with ZiYi the whole day.
Movie after movie. Howl's moving castle den Robots.
Now..
I can like picture Robots in my mind..
Watched it twice. With Church and just with ZiYi and Danielle.
ZiYi amazes me always. Non-stop.. haha. Chat alot with her or should I say I talk too much? And I saw her eat. As in, eating food. But before that we decided to drop by Tampines libaray, and was like the Isralites in the wilderness 40 years.. both of us walked a big round until we reached the Promised land which was just around the corner..
And Jossssssssssshy this for you.
JOSHUA's gay. -smile-
Back to blog..
Watch the movie. Howl's abit draggy. Belah.. was a sweet story in Jap. Haha..
Den went to get some sunlight after that to chill our frozen fingers.
Returned to the library again and intro some books to her. I brought last year's Times magazine about Easter day and Passion of Christ. I think.. those pastors or whoever you call them, needs a touch from God.
'Be still and know that I am God.'
Hahaha... they will pee on their pants.
Rendezvous with Danielle. Wrong bus stop.. den returned to TM to find her.
She was with another friend. Intro and intro.. I was a "?"
Er.. Amanda from TKGS.. yup!! got it. She requested for my Christian name.
Actually I do have.
Have 2 names.
One will bring forth Heaven on Earth. And the other will open the gates of Hell. I'm who I am.. One will brust forth golden white angelic wings. and the other will call upon Mass Destruction.
I tried and tested. These names will affect my personality. So it's true that,
"You are what, when people speak it into being."
Zhi Han.. it's the name of the mix blend of those.
Watch Robots with Danielle and ZiYi..
Had a long chat... :)
Popped by Pizza Hut..
Sally's working there, so it's kind of werid to be served by a friend.
Haha.. Eat and chat. CHIJ just amazes me.. or should I say, girl school.
Den back up to the vicious cycle of losing time.
Either take bus to save scrap or MRT to be tuna-ed..
Latter wasn't the choice.
Up we went, Bus 22 with ZiYi and bidded Danielle farewell. :0
Sleepy prophet need to recharge physically.
My heart's getting old.
My mind's already rusty.
My joints need oiling badly.
